found it!

So funny story.
I have been locked out of my hotmail account and i had to give them another email address in order to access my account and i remembered that i have this google account that i have my phone and this blog attached to.. i totally forgot about it. And so when i finally remembered my password i logged on and saw these emails about my blog. I was like 'Thats right!!' i have a blog haha..
So i named this one 'FOUND IT!' for that reason.
I think i should write on here more often again as i was reading some of my old posts and i forgot how meaningful i could get haha.. any way it helped me back than clear my head and man do i need that now :) And whats more it hasnt even been a year since i wrote on here so its not all bad..
So i don't know if any one remembers that i even have a blog any more or if any one will read it but it will help me to clear my head again so i will do it any way.
until next time
i promise it wont be 7 months this time haha

40 hour Famine

Hey Guys
Just an update, i realise i haven't written on here for ages but i just haven't had the time (not looking for an excuse or anything :))
But hey, most of you know that i did the 40 Hour Famine this last weekend and as well as giving up food we also gave up a limb. We tried to live life as normally as possible but we realise halfway through sat we just had no energy, none what so ever. This was my 4th year doing it and i have never been so stuffed in my life. This was the first year that we actually went out and did stuff while on the famine. I was on crutches, Cait had an eye patch on and hand bandaged so she couldn't use it, Megan had her arm bandaged and the other girls had their thumbs gone. i think me and Cait had the most difficult ones to deal with. walking around on crutches while on an empty stomach is not cool, its hard work. Now we only had to deal with it for 40 hours but imagine if we had to do it for all our lives?? We worry from day to day about things that don't really matter, but has food ever been a worry?? has drink ever been a worry??

For the first time in all the years that i did the famine did it really hit me, Cait passed out during church on sunday, i was woozy, and everyone was just so hungry that their stomach hurt, now if really need be we could have just gone to the fridge and got food but if it were real we would just have to live with it. At the end of our famine we had food (Pizza) and normal drink, but imagine if it were real. We would get maybe some rice or a piece of bread and thats it, dirty water, things that we take for granted.

We need to thank God for all the blessings that He gives us each and every day of our lives, for with out Him we would all be dead.

In saying that we did have a good time here are some photos of our weekend... that i will put on when i can find my camera :)

till next time :)

...rain...

Rain,
isn't it the most beautiful thing that God could give us? with out water we are nothing, yet water is something that we are never with out...
Have you ever thought about it, really?
Rain, its nothing new, really its just recycled water, water that we (as humans) don't have access to, rain is just water from off the earth, in the sky, and poured out on us. Gods way of saying, I have given you all, I never left you and never will but i will give it to you again... and again... and again...
Really, aren't we like those Isrealites in the desert? complaining and complaining until we get it, and than we complain about what we get. we are never happy, just yesterday i was driving to work in the rain, and as i was driving i was praying, asking God to stop the rain when i get to work so i won't get wet... i mean how dare I? ask God to stop giving His life saving rain, and here i am asking God to stop it?? and when i got to work, sure enough, the rain stopped... never in my life had anything like that ever happened to me.. the rain didn't start again until i got inside...
Just goes to show God really cares... just as God has been pouring out the rain on us, so does He pour out His gifts and love to us, but when the rain stops - God doesn't, His gifts never stop pouring out on us so that in all our life we might have the fruit to show it...

lately i have been stuck for words for what to write on here, and so i haven't, but it seems i just haven't been looking hard enough...

until next time

Amazing grace

I was watching the movie Amazing grace and saw a music video for Chris Tomlins amazing grace and thought it was worth sharing:

hope you enjoy
till next time

Observe the Sabbath day....

So, I honestly believe that every thing that happens to us, happens for a reason. You might not see the reason until a few days later or even years later but if we really sit down and think about it, nothing happens 'just because'.
Take this last week for example, i had 4 days off than i worked 8 days on. I really felt inhuman, walking took every single ounce of concentration i had (i'm not kidding, i almost tripped on a, nothing, and it took me like 5 min just to walk from a building to my car that would usually take 30 secs...) , if someone had pushed me i would have fallen over, if someone said boo! to me i would have cried and so on. It was unreal how weird i felt. I fell asleep on my desk at tafe at lunch time, i couldn't carry on with a conversation, i tried real hard but as soon as the person i was talking to said more than 5 words in a row i didn't hear them, i couldn't read my music (i was at band). i'm sure that the last 3 days (as soon as i went over the 6 day limit or work) i couldn't eat properly, and when i did eat it was not healthy, i didn't want to drink anything. Every thing was just out of wack.

So any way to get to the point, i was thinking about it just a few seconds ago and i felt this overwhelming sense of joy, and knowledge that God got it right again! He gave us the right amount of days on and days off so that we might stay 'normal'. He knows our weaknesses and our strengths. And even though there were days in this last week where i didn't have to get out of bed early but could sleep in, the thought of going to work still wore on me, i was like a zombie...

God is Almighty and all knowing. Its humbling, awesome, and joyful  to know that we have such a God looking out for us, every moment of every day. He gave us the Sunday for a reason, not just to go to His house to worship Him but it is a day of well deserved rest from the hard working week. I often took that day for granted but this week has put it in to proportion for me.

Even in the little things, trust God, for nothing is too small or great for Him.

until next time
xoxo
(enjoy those weekends)

Maybe....

As i sit here and think of what i could be doing right now at this particular moment there are so many things i could be doing. one of which i really should be doing is going to bed as it is nearly 11 and i have to go to tafe tomorrow. But i take off my dirty glasses, push aside my stray hair and sit here wondering why it is i don't know what i am going to write about until i actually start writing. Maybe its because i think with my fingers. Maybe its because i actually don't have any thing to write about or maybe, just maybe, i am hoping there is something good that suddenly pops up for me to write about while i write my intro to this blog entry. Well only one of them appear to be right at this point of time and it is the 2nd one at the moment.

So maybe i'll just tell you what has been going on in my life....... and let you get bored of reading this before you get to the next sentence. Maybe i'll tell you about what i did to mum today for their anniversary (i bought her a present and wrapped up the empty box and put the present in the cupboard) but not very original. Maybe i'll tell you where not to buy coffee (the aroma cafe in the perth library near the train station) but than you can't figure it out on your own. Maybe i'll tell you that i have been playing my sax so much i can't whistle cause my lips are so raw but that would be putting a downer on any musician who hasn't picked up their instrument in a while and make them re-think doing so.

And suddenly a thought pops into my head. I am completely happy with nothing to write about. My head is empty, nothing important that people have to know about, nothing at all. bliss.... absolute bliss..... and welcome to my world. :) smile, put on some music, and just let your head empty. hear the pounding of the keys on the keyboard, or leave the music off and hear the silence of a house full of people who are asleep... listen to the clock ticking in the background and breath.... isn't it beautiful. imagine every minute of every day to be this peaceful, uninterrupted.... and then the fridge turns on and the silence is gone...

Every day, take a moment to just sit back, relax, pray perhaps, meditate on things gone wrong and then things gone right, just let your mind wonder... it rained today, we need the rain, the rain was good... Just think about whatever pops into your head and write it down... Take time out of your usual routine to de-stress and just enjoy the moment.

Until next time

dare to be you...

So some of you who knew me years ago would say that i was shy.... (well that was many years ago) i didn't dare to go places where i knew i wouldn't know any body, i hated parties (and that is one of my most hidden secrets and i still hate parties), i hate going into rooms where there is heaps of people even if it is all people that i do know. But i have just done some thing that a few years ago i wouldn't have even bothered to do.... i rang my boss and organised a meeting... i am so proud of myself and yet i still don't know if i acctually dare to go but i have to as it is booked...

The years of working has taught me something that i really still find hard to admitt, i am a people pleaser, i don't really say what is on  my mind when it comes to making a decision or when i see some one doing something wrong, but when i moved places of work i took it as a new beginning, i have stood up for my self, it really took hard work and still sometimes really have to argue in my head about being true to myself. I'll give you an example, they were discussing euthanasia on the news at work and i was like i don't agree, no one has the right to say when they die and when they stay alive, and my work mate was like so ur telling me that if you were termally ill and on your death bed that you would rather suffer than to die, and i said thats exactly what i am saying, it is God who decides when you die and when you stay alive, we do not have the right.... and i was so proud of myself for really showing how i felt on the topic and the other person didn't know where to look but he knew where i stood, a few years ago i would have just not said a word and it really feels good to know that other people know where you stand and that you don't take knocking over... i still find it hard to be true to what i do on the weekends with other people but the other day i had to hand in my sick note and i came in after church to drop it off and my friend was like where have u been and i said church, one little word, and they stood back and i think for the first time really saw who i am not that she didn't know that i go to church and am a christian but i think for the first time it really hit home for her what my life is like and it felt good.

i really encourage other people to be true to themselves, don't hide your life, don't rub it in to other who don't want to know but be true, don't be quiet because it is the same as lying but be true, dare to be you, and you will find that it gets easier as time goes on....

see you soon
xoxo