its been awhile

hey guys (or who ever reads this)
its been a while since i've written on here, i've not had much to talk about on here and i've just been too busy to think about it...
cait showed me something on youtube yesterday that i thought was just hilarious about people with IOS i'll show it to you :)

thats how i have felt for the last few weeks, i really need a holiday hey :)
every one here has just had their 2 week holiday during which we went to albany and stuff and i didn't have my mornings by myself or my days off by myself i need a holiday from my family almost :) but now that life is back to normal i've had my days at home by myself i feel back to my old self again where i could just do what i wanted when i wanted. there was even one day i didn't get out of bed till 12:30 lol.

any way not much else to talk about so i'll just leave you to it :)
see you soon

update

hey
as you would have read about my old resident that i use to look after i just thought i would let you know he is doing fine and is out of hospital, with out an arm :( they sent him out of shenton park because they can't rehabilitate him, but he is home and is doing well as far as i know :)

see you soon...

torn

hey guys
this week has been a big one for me, full of mixed emotions. First there was the high of the family weekend away, it was fun and a real oportunity (that wasn't missed) for us as a family to bond. We spent the first night having dinner together as a family and than going for a spa, than we went to the dutch shop the next day and than some of us went golfing (me included) while some of us stayed behind with the kids and went for a swim. it one of the best weekends i have had in a while.

Than it was back to work, the worst day of work i have ever had, if you read my last blog update you may have realised, but lets just say it was a mix of people being negative and nieve and hormones ;) any way i was the most grumpy and upset i have been in a while.

Than the next day (and here where torn comes into it) at tafe, i found out that one of my old residents was going into surgery to have their arm amputated due to cancer, i was mixed because i don't want them to die but them living with out an arm... i mean its their only  limb that they can use and with out it well its not the same, they can't eat, stand, conduct to their fav music.... so in a way i was hoping (secretly) that they wouldn't make it through the op, but in a way i despreatly hoped they would make it through and be alright.... so the next day at work when i hadn't heard any thing (as i was hearing via via via...) i was so antious that i was just cleaning every thing, i vaccumed the whole house (at work) cleaned the linen cupboard and a bed room... and so on, than my boss is like "is this a welcome back gift or something???" and im like no i clean when i am antious and i told her and she is like no i just checked my email they are doing fine and is out of icu and everything, i didn't know whether to cry or laugh or be happy or be sad, i think i nearly passed out with not knowing not to do.... i think at that moment i was just releaved but for any one out there that doesn't know the feeling you don't know until you are in the possition its tough knowing that someone you love is in surgery to remove a part of their body... some one you looked after and lived their life with... to know that the doctors were just in surgery taking the personallity off their body... but when i heard they made it through... its hard... so thats why i was torn in between happy and sad... i think i just went numb....

And than from being numb to being happy again, me and cait went to Albany to visit Olivia and Cyndi caits friends for the weekend, it was a blast, great fun.

So i have been on a rollercoster this last week... hopefully it will calm down again...but than again, life would be boring without the little bumps in the road...

see you soon :)

Love

If there is one thing that i have had to remind my self constantly today it would be all summed up in this passage:

"If i speak in the tongues of men and of angels but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or clanging cymble. If i have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge and if i have a faith that can move mountains but have not love, i am nothing. if i give all i possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames but have not love, i gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind, it does not envy, it is not proud, it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs, love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth, it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perserveres.

Love never fails, but where there are prophecies, they will cease, where there are tongues, they will be stilled, where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and prophecy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.

When i was a child, i talked like a child, i thought like a child, i reasoned like a child, when i became a man i put all childish things behind me.

Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror, than we shall see face to face. Now i know in part, than i shall know fully, even as i am fully known.

And now these three remain: Faith, Hope, Love.

But the greatest of these three is Love"

Today i learnt that no matter where you are, no matter how old you are, there is always going to be imperfections and if you spend your life looking for them you are going to be misserable and negative. Today i witnessed it first hand what it can do to your life if you spend your time looking for all the bad things in your life and in life around you and it is not a pretty picture.

So just remember that a better picture is going to replace the ruined picture we see in front of us day in and day out and you will learn to live with these imperfections and look forward to what is ahead.

remember to Love one another, no matter how unbearable it can be, just smile and think of the passage above. it doesn't mean that you can be pushed around and you have to listen to the crap that you hear from people and by all means tell them but let that be that and get over it. love one another as God loves us.

see you soon.

my happy bag...

the other day when i was cleaning my room i found a bag that a friend once gave me, it is called the happy bag. the bag contains:
a marble - incase i seem to lose mine...
an elastic band - to keep things together
a ten cent coin - just so that i always have change with me
a rubber - to erase the mistakes i make
a string - i can't exactly remember what that is for
and
a soap - so that i smell nice

i just thought that is was a fun thing that i should share with you all :)
see you soon

my new pets :D

so i haven't been on here for ages but i have some exciting news!!!!
i bought some CRAZY CRABS!!! 3 of them and they are the coolest little animals ever
its strange you know because they all have their own personallity, firstly theres Romeo, now he/she is the shy one with the most spunk some times he won't even come out of his shell but than there are times when he will run around the tank digging holes and trying to fit through things but can't cause of his shell and you will see why in a min when i put up photos.
than there is Steve, the bully of the tank, he will climb on and push around the other 2 and the other 2 run away, he is also often the most energetic digging holes and tapping on the glass and sleeping in the food bowl....
and last but not least my fav, Marvin... lol... he is the smallest but the funnest to watch, he climbs on the others and hangs upside down from the door frame of the little hut that i bought for them and falling off things is just funny to watch...

i sometimes get one out and let it crawl around on my desk, i took one to caits room this afternoon and watched it crawl back to my room and get lost, its funny how fast they can go... and i think Steve has just lost his battle for dominion in the tank because romeo just pushed him out the way and stood on top so there you go....

any way here are some photos...
                                                      this one is Marvin :)

                                                         this one is Romeo

                                                               and this one is Steve :)

                                                    and they all sleep in the corner together :)

any way see you soon