dare to be you...

So some of you who knew me years ago would say that i was shy.... (well that was many years ago) i didn't dare to go places where i knew i wouldn't know any body, i hated parties (and that is one of my most hidden secrets and i still hate parties), i hate going into rooms where there is heaps of people even if it is all people that i do know. But i have just done some thing that a few years ago i wouldn't have even bothered to do.... i rang my boss and organised a meeting... i am so proud of myself and yet i still don't know if i acctually dare to go but i have to as it is booked...

The years of working has taught me something that i really still find hard to admitt, i am a people pleaser, i don't really say what is on  my mind when it comes to making a decision or when i see some one doing something wrong, but when i moved places of work i took it as a new beginning, i have stood up for my self, it really took hard work and still sometimes really have to argue in my head about being true to myself. I'll give you an example, they were discussing euthanasia on the news at work and i was like i don't agree, no one has the right to say when they die and when they stay alive, and my work mate was like so ur telling me that if you were termally ill and on your death bed that you would rather suffer than to die, and i said thats exactly what i am saying, it is God who decides when you die and when you stay alive, we do not have the right.... and i was so proud of myself for really showing how i felt on the topic and the other person didn't know where to look but he knew where i stood, a few years ago i would have just not said a word and it really feels good to know that other people know where you stand and that you don't take knocking over... i still find it hard to be true to what i do on the weekends with other people but the other day i had to hand in my sick note and i came in after church to drop it off and my friend was like where have u been and i said church, one little word, and they stood back and i think for the first time really saw who i am not that she didn't know that i go to church and am a christian but i think for the first time it really hit home for her what my life is like and it felt good.

i really encourage other people to be true to themselves, don't hide your life, don't rub it in to other who don't want to know but be true, don't be quiet because it is the same as lying but be true, dare to be you, and you will find that it gets easier as time goes on....

see you soon
xoxo

whats new???

so howz it going everyone?
just thought i would say whats been new since i've spoke on here last....

well its been up and down with work, with (and i have been holding back all the swearing in my head when i think of it) taking us off night shifts. well heres the story, there are 6 of us nurses going through tafe at the moment, me and helen are the only ones that have come from another house to go to charlseworth (the house we are in at the moment) and so we were put on a roster with night shifts, and thats fine, but that was before we knew that the other 4 nurses are not doing them, and before we knew how much homework it was to go through this nursing and even the head of tafe is trying to get rid of the amount of homework we have so its not just us complaining. so we went to the head of nulsen to try and fix, and he is like yeah sure we didn't know that you 2 were the only ones doing nights, thats not fair, i'll make it official. so here we are thinking it was all sorted out only to see my name on nights again so i took it off, i get a phone call today from my 'boss' saying that i have to do it, saying that she spoke to the head of nulsen and he said we had to do them, well how double standard is this?? so i am refusing to do them...

any way thats the one thing of my life that is 'new' but here is another, i have been going to the gym and absolutly loving it, me and cait go 3 times a week to do classes, we do 2 step classes and zumba :) it is fantastic and i feel great after i do it and i feel already that i have been feeling more fit and happy and full of energy all the time :) LOVING IT

oh and band isn't new but still going and loving it.

i don't have any thing else new, i did last night when i was going to write on here but it wouldn't load up for me.

see you soon :)