bleh

So today i learnt what it would be like to have a swallowing difficulty, not being able to talk or swallow with out pain and for the first time i wondered what it would be like to have it all the time, having to have thickened drinks and prueed food, not being able to get ur point accross just because it is too much work to talk and you would rather just point or not say any thing at all. Today i have to really thank God for the gifts that He has given me, the gift of talking, eating, swallowing, and being able to do so with out any pain what so ever, Today i have had to put on a brave face where as all the time just wanting to go to bed, i found that i didn't mind, see i look after people who can't do things for themselves, who can't talk or get their point accross so easy, so putting on a brave face today was not a hard thing to do but i reallised that when i got home just how bad i was feeling and thats when i realised what a leason was there for me.
We have to thank God for every thing, in health and sickness, in riches or no, because no matter how bad it gets, no matter how low it goes there is always someone worse off than you. Today i witnessed that first hand and it made me feel stupid for thinking about complaining. (until my drugs wore off...)
any way, sleep time
see you later...

(by the way if i have said things over and over its because i am not really with it... :)